I had decided three days ago to trash my Facebook account. I’ve had this account for over 8 years and met a bunch of wonderful people and kept in touch with friends; but I have also spent hundreds and possibly thousands of hours playing on-line games over the years, not to mention spending hundreds of dollars on virtual plants, virtual houses, virtual animals. It was taking a toll on my family and the house was a wreck. I gained more weight than I wanted. I found myself snapping at my son when he’d interrupt my arguments with people online. I found myself tossing and turning in bed thinking of remarks I’d say to people who would flame me on boards.
I figured it was OK if I didn’t play the games and just hang out on the site and see what everyone was up to but that didnt work either…almost four hours later I got off the computer with nothing learned, nothing gained except wasted time and feeling shitty again.
My husband (and interestingly enough one of my dear Facebook friends) said: “if you kicked the cigarette habit, you can kick anything” which is true. Chemical addictions, psychological addictions…I’ve been an addict my whole life of sorts, mainly to gaming, on-line interactions and yes, even running.
The running addiction was at least healthy. Facebook addiction is unhealthy. Any addiction in unhealthy but I have to be addicted to something it seems to make things worthwhile. I guess I’m just a passionate person.
Past Internet addictions I’ve kicked: MySpace, World of Warcraft (WoW), Second Life and Kingory. When I trashed MySpace and Second Life, I cried for days. It was that bad. I just replaced it with Facebook, so now Facebook’s gotta go.
So HELP!! These next few days/weeks will be pretty rough. I haven’t hit the DELETE ACCOUNT button yet but it’s scheduled for tonight/tomorrow. No turning back.
UPDATE: as of 4:15 PM somewhere in the Pacific on this date I have deleted both my Facebook accounts (yes, both..that’s how bad it was). I feel strangely odd yet relieved. But also panicking. What the HELL have I done?